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if you wanted a bot to kick off these daily posts so you don't have to rememeber every day. that'd be ok. news bots seem to just be about generating lots of shallow content. this place has been rebounding well enough since you took over that we don't need a bot as filler.

it's not so much an autism specific thing but it is definitely a "you will behave in this exact way or else" thing. i recall in the 90s being sent to the office, having my parents called and routinely guilted. for using 'the cross thumb' in this image with the paper horizontal while writing. and a few other on here while drawing. then i got out of school and was told there isnt one way to hold a pencil and i may never stop being angry about this.

no such thing as too many. expand the garden until it eats your entire yard. then start sneaking into neighbors yards at night and planting seedlings.

came here to suggest journaling as well. and if you've already had a good experiance with it, all the better. during my divorce, the only other person i felt connected with offered to "help fix me" if i'd just give them a pass on all my established boundries. i declined and we parted ways. filled at least two books that year but it gave me a place to talk outside my head. it was enough to get me to each next day. that gave me time to let connections with other people develop on terms i was comfortable with.

debain, with xfce if i need a desktop. mostly because i started on xubuntu. started learning sysadmin stuff when all i could afford was a potato with salvaged computer components shoved in it. xfce considered that excessively over powered. ended up loving the way i set up my xfce env, and probably wont change it much over the next 20yrs because theres no need. so when cononical got extra gross it was easy to just move to debian and carry on with my life.

we are the union's ordinary life album

the empty walls with only the few things i needed was my default. then i was married to a trash goblin for awhile. so now i've got artwork up and plants everywhere. but every single thing has a place it belongs and every surface is clear. completely empty spaces feel weird now but it cant be chaos piles ever again.

im in 4b and it's doing that 60 degree temp change in a day thing. snows then melts, then snows then melts. throwing down native stuff thats been in cold storage right now and reminding myself the warmth is a lie.

halfway through responding i talked myself out of my own opinion on this. language changes and i think "on the spectrum" is coming to the end of it's usefulness. it was helpful for a time but now i only use it at work in the context of "i'm just grasping for language that will make you understand how to communicate with me".

On the spectrum is a helpful middle ground when exploring the topic though. And it was a very helpful middle ground when every discussion of autism seemed to devolve into clinical diagnosis vs awareness that the medical system in most countries is a dumpster fire. getting my son diagnosed took very little effort. when i looked into it for myself 6 yrs ago, the clinician was helpfully blunt with "look unless you need accomodations dont put yourself through this yet. theres one person in this state who can diagnose in adults and it's a 2 yr wait list to start the 1 yr $1200 out of pocket process".

a friend got her offical diagnosis about 6 months ago and the process has by her description, improved and shortened significantly. so i may explore that again. at this point outside work i just use autist/autism, but at work i still use spectrum. I do agree the language is aging out of broad usefullness, but i don't believe it's something i'll be bothered by for a long while still. i get your frustration with it. I think we're in that be kind and let people use the language they're comfortable with period for the spectrum. it may die off or it may become elder millenials term for ourselves as aspie has for some genxers who grew up before the spectrum entered the dms5.

good start this year. got my peppers and slower flowers started under the growlights. seeded another section of the yard with tall grass and native flowers. and im adding my first bee hive this summer, ordered a nuc from a local farm that breeds for harsh winters. should be a good year if the weather would stop toying with my heart.