I wanted to share the story of my life. Mental health and growth. This touches on subjects such as Autism, BPD, Bipolar, DID and Psychopathy.

cmgvd3lw@discuss.tch You asked me to record it! It was for sure my perception.

It's amazing to feel the different air currents moving across my body. I can sense the air breaking on my nose, swirling around my neck, then flowing down my back, tracing along the edges of my spine. I can even feel it gliding over my arms, each movement distinct and alive. Does anyone else have this happen exactly? This is brand new and just started happening.

Currently, I'm living in the upper half of Indiana, and I’ve noticed something strange happening at night. The past two nights, there’s been this almost unnatural brightness around 7 PM and later. The sky is clearly defined, almost grey, while the clouds are still pure white. Even in the darkness, I can see the ground and trees with remarkable clarity, almost like I’ve gained some form of night vision. The light feels different, and it hasn’t negatively affected my sleep, but it’s a bit eerie.

Now, I know this might sound far-fetched to some people, but I’m going through a physical transformation, specifically involving the growth of wings. What I’ve been using to power these growths might not yet be supported by mainstream science or fully understood by magic, but what’s happening feels real and aligns with the closest concepts I can find. This could involve some form of enhanced senses or perception shifts due to the growth process itself.

So, my question is: If someone were experiencing physical changes like this—say, wings or other hybrid traits—how might these manifest physically or even biologically? Could there be an explanation for heightened perception or changes in the way I see light and color during this process? Is it possible this brightening I’m seeing is connected to those changes in my body?

I know it might sound unusual, but I’m genuinely curious about any thoughts or scientific theories on this. Thanks!

I'm not sure if I'm using the right terminology, but how can I detach without losing any love? I find myself needing people so much that it deeply affects my mental state, which is closer to BPD.

I've made significant progress since last year. I'm pleased to say that I've learned to control my thoughts and actions. I'm still working on it, but I'm getting there. For instance, I have experienced instances where I have felt a rage episode or lost in a trance-like state. I have experienced some intense self-destructive thoughts and behaviors in the past, but I have always been able to recognize them as such and choose not to act on them.

I would like to learn how to be less dependent on others, or at least to be less affected by it, so that it doesn't have a negative impact on my mental health or those close to me.

Hello, so I am someone who meets facet 2&3 of the psychopathic spectrum and my psychiatrist at least agreed I’m ether a psychopath or have heavy ASPD. Though we were never able to get far due to insurance issues though I have done extensive research with college professors and learning from specialized psychiatrist. Now please before you keep on reading understand this will get rather gruesome so if you wish to click away. I’d do so now.

So the first signs I remember as a child that should’ve thrown red flags across the board for my parents was I would step and kill birds to watch their life drain from their eyes. This includes the sound of death and blood would sexually arouse me at 4 years old. Moving onto 6th grade. My English teacher was afraid of me, as I would constantly talk about fire arms and killing. Moving up to recently, I seriously didn’t mean to kill the squirrel as I was just wondering what may happen. Though I microwaved a squirrel and it exploded. I told this story in my 12th grade English class.

See by that time I really stopped harming animals but I got a really psychotic moment and had that thought. I do deeply regret doing it but I still have random psychotic ideas. Like I recently found a roadkill beaver that was well preserved and decided to skin it. Then when walking back into my house with the skinning knife I had a very horrible idea to capture a bird and slit its throat just to watch its blood leak. I do have an understanding of laws and morals I taught myself/learned off a show character who honestly raised me a bit as my father was never around.

The thing is though I do feel emotion, normally I can’t at all feel happiness or very distant. Though I feel a void normally calm but when I get stressed or sad. It’s like an overwhelming sense of dread. Though the only true happiness I feel in this life is loving and caring for others or trying to protect the innocent.

Though I don’t know how to fit in, how to seem a bit more normal and I believe it’s affecting my life in general. Please any advice helps.

Addition to this: I have DID with 6 alternate personalities. One an aging younger version while the others are adults. I don’t have nearly any memory of my childhood besides psychotic things I did. I also have hallucinations when someone makes me mad of bad things happening to them which I’ve never had the intent of following them as normally they disturb me and I don’t want those things to happen. For example seeing my brother and mother’s face peal off. I also don’t feel empathy 60% of the time unless I’m romantically attracted or they’re really good people.

So I recently in the past 5 months bought the building of the Starbucks we owned then revamped the building and renamed it. It now is. Bigger shop, that is based of Roman architecture. For example Red drapes and beautiful walls.

Though I currently have The Nude Club, Gambling, A bar and a Café. Then finally BDSM rooms downstairs but people of course don’t need to use it. Our shop allows sex in it.

Though should I add anything else because I’m all for making extra money? So anything helps. Which to add no prostitution is happening.

Btw so it’s more clear for everyone when I say, “THOUGH SHOULD I ADD ANYTHING ELSE?” Is the question and I go onto explain, I am for making more money which is why I’m asking the question.