I had a buddy, and we talked in great detail about this. I chase challenges, and am always looking for the next big puzzle to muddle my way through. He chased freedom. He just wanted to be who he was and spend his time how he wanted.
My point is people are motivated by different things. Find your thing and pursue it. Don't worry what anyone else is doing. You don't answer to them, and they're not any happier than you.
I just switched my gaming laptop to slowly running Manjaro. So far I've had good luck running most everything in my steam library, including some major titles. All look great at very high end settings. You should give it another go.