leafellis

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Does anyone else feel like life's been on pause for too long? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[โ€“] leafellis@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 points 2 weeks ago

The first year or so, yes. It really didn't help making friends in a new city.

Does anyone else feel like life's been on pause for too long? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[โ€“] leafellis@lemmy.dbzer0.com 9 points 2 weeks ago (3 children)

Yup. Have been feeling like this for almost five years, since I started univeristy.

I started struggling with anxiety and depression shortly after I moved to another town. That, plus the exams accumulating and other minor stuff really did put my life on pause. After two years I was able to get sort of a break from uni, and I was able to unpause myself. I started going out with ppl and cultivating my interests, at least for a year. Now I'm trying to get my degree, and I should be able to in two months (shit it's so close).

I'm still struggling with anxiety a lot, but I feel like the only way out is by finishing university. Once I do that, I hope I'll be able to actually unpause my life, or at least find a good balance.

Sorry I don't really have any good advice, but know that you're not alone in this.

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I hate anxiety (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
 

I wrote this some moments ago, trying to describe what I was feeling. Sometime I get in this state where I'm anxious af but I'm also sort of calm. I don't really know how to explain it.

I feel like I have to keep myself together. Slow movements, short steps, a bit crooked, I tremble. My muscles are tense. Every problem I can think about is solvable, and yet I have this feeling that there's something big I'm missing. What if I get something wrong? It's the end. I feel like I'm falling to pieces. I'm going on by dint of duty: I have to send that email, I have to eat. I finish something and there is always something else, and it always has a deadline. I feel like I have to keep myself together.