A pdf is available on libgen ^^

We don't know about what the girl said after the explanation. She probably didn't mention it again since it clearly didn't work the first time.

"Anon" kinda just ignored how she felt/told her what (at least from my perspective) amounts to "your feelings are invalid because that wasn't my intent".

As for the subsequent actions, I'd attribute that to high school level mental maturity/not knowing how to handle such situations. Talking it out would be the ideal scenario, though that rarely happens even long after high school time from what I've seen ._.

(Rant - that might not be fully related to replied to comment anymore - over :P)

My guess is that there were too many strangers around for my liking so I just kinda retracted myself to wait and see. Which isn't all that helpful when you're the one to be assessed :D

lol. Is that an HDMI port as mouth? :P

Basically meant a neutral facial expression with little variation, mostly staying the same. And distant as in "this has nothing to do with me" or "whatever..."

• a long time without two-way communication, now he can adapt because it's expected of him
• mostly uniform "social smile" with little variation
• generally a rather uniform and seemingly distant facial expression
• social chatting only with family members, not others
• little interest in other kids his age, rarely (if at all) being the one to initiate contact

Found this in some doctors notes from a few years back, not sure if it was specifically autism related but it seems close enough :P

It's kinda funny now seeing my smile at the time being described with little variation and sometimes seeming sightly condescending. Makes me wonder how much of that was just me trying to smile at appropriate times

I did actually, not in english though. And it's been a while since then

Ah yes, humans are meat popsicles and our skin is the ziplock bag containing the meat (according to some tumblr comment)

I can relate to the bottom-up processing so much. I never thought about it too much, aside from (a few months ago) figuring out that I often need to understand the basic details of something before I can really understand the collective thing.
One example that comes to mind is understanding the version control system (wikipedia link) "Git". I knew how to use the available commands to a certain degree but performing more complex operations always seemed kinda foggy.
After reading up on the structure of commits, branches and other things and how they're all handled, it was a lot easier to really understand what those commands I found on stackoverflow actually did. What the effects of different commands really did to the underlying data instead of having to rely soley on the prettier version presented to the user to trace what's going on.

Having a term to associate with this need to understand is wonderful.