I really resonate with your comment and also struggled with depression throughout my teens into adulthood until I learned about late diagnosed adhd and how those who fly under the radar for that can often lead to chronic burnout which is very similar looking to depression. Have you ever considered you might be ADHD?
MadgePickles
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I understand the intention behind when people say that "the doom and glom attitude is harmful to the fight". I've heard it many times. But it's kind of like telling a depressed person to just be happy. It's like, oh wow never considered that k thanks I'm cured now /s. It's just like hey fuck you for being depressed you're killing the planet - it doesn't do a while lot to help. I think you're right of course. I still don't know how to stop being overwhelmed and depressed by it all.
Thanks! I love a good wall of text from a genuine person. I go back and forth on whether a diagnosis is the right choice for me. I'm concerned about the ADHD diagnosis bc I do rely on my medication and worry that might be at risk without it. I'm really not concerned about if I do or don't have the conditions - it's clear and obvious to me now that I know about them both and I live my life as such, in the sense that I provide myself accommodations where I can. I'm not convinced it's safe to be "out" at work, although I imagine a large percentage of my coworkers are likely spectrumed themselves being in engineering. I drop my little hints about "my brain prefers" this or that by way of explaining my quirks and especially now that I work remotely I am easily able to mask sufficiently for the corporate environment as just a quirky independent thinker.
Learning about ADHD and autism is definitely one of my main special interests so I spend a huge amount of time thinking about this and will definitely bring notes. I like your suggestions about relating to others and mentioning all my friends are ND as well haha.
I had not found Sam yet, so thanks for that suggestion. Ultimately I'm going to try being very choosey at finding providers bc being able to trust someone enough to be vulnerable is really freaking hard and if they don't understand these Neuro types well enough they aren't going to be able to help me anyway, even if they are well meaning. My last therapist was a really great lady who I liked a lot but she kept sending me worksheets meant for 9 year olds and had suggestions like using a planner so ┐(‘～`;)┌
I've found more help and perspective listening to lectures on YouTube and even freaking therapy Instagram than any of my real therapy experiences and I'm a huge proponent of therapy for all. It's just hard to find someone in my small state.
Anyway thanks for the comment! Have a great day
I appreciate the pep talk. I'm an engineer in water resources and do my best to help where I can. Sometimes I have outbursts on the Internet and sometimes I fall into frighteningly deep depression. I removed my ability to have children in my terror of bringing life into a the world so dark. So it's not one or the other -be angry and do nothing or have hope and work towards a better future. I'm very angry and very frightened and very jaded... And I'm doing what I can to hopefully prove myself wrong. I would very much like to be wrong. I don't have much hope most days and do believe the planet would be much better off of humans were at least much reduced in number. But I have loved ones and empathy for strangers, as well as a sense of self preservation so I don't relish the thought of suffering. Things can be more than one thing at the same time. I'm not sure how to develop hope, and I'm not sure how people like yourself still carry any, but I have the kind of steadfast resolve to help my fellow humans reduce their suffering at the end. There's a great deal of good that humans can do as well, art, music, stories, love. Those are the threads that keep me bobbing close to the surface. But yeah, I avoid the news almost entirely except for a few trusted sources and what I can't help but run across on Lemmy, etc. I'm too sensitive clearly
Yeah I'm still moving forward with my search for a specialist in adult late diagnosed high masking twice exceptional AuDHD in women... ** Laughs sardonically **
Easy to say, harder to do
Indeed. I'm often overwhelmed by my feelings of fear and anger. Reading this gave me such a sense of futility, like wow I must be destined to die a slow and painful death of cancer, if poverty or civil uprising doesn't get me first. Discussion seems silly at this point. Capitalism has sealed our fate, there's little we can do to protect ourselves and our loved ones in this environment. Everyone should be just as angry. To not be this angry one must be dissociating... Which is what I'll go back to now until the next article wakes up my fear and anger again.
Rather negative lol
Arrogant fucking humans. This story plays out every time. And they want to blot out the sun to control climate change... We deserve everything we get for our hubris. I can't wait for humanity to collapse we are a scourge
This was a good sub, glad to see it here
That's a great idea thanks