Devanismyname

3 nights. On the 4th I got 3 hours of sleep.

It's not a decision. You would feel no fear, no anxiety, no shame. That would allow you to walk through people's boundaries with ease because you aren't afraid of any of the outcomes. It's not a moral decision, it's your nature. A lot of people like to glorify this type of stuff, but the reality of it isn't like in the movies. I work with psychopaths everyday in my work setting and they aren't the smooth cool guys like in the movies. They are dysfunctional, short sited, and completely untrustworthy. They usually get spotted for what they are pretty quickly because they aren't very smart. Some are smart, but even they eventually get figured out too. Everything they do is self serving, dishonest, and completely without honor which people catch onto quickly. It's not something you want to be. Sure, there are places for them in society, but the useful ones are few and far between. The majority of them are worthless. The fact you're even asking this shows that you are self reflective which makes me think you're probably not one.

Also, society is warming up to the idea of having almost no morals and integrity which is why Trump got elected. It's why you see a bunch of young people acting like they want to be the guy from American psycho.

Give me an example of what you said.

China gets asia, Russia gets Europe, us gets the America's. Let 1984 commence.

You're thinking too much already. They might not even be reacting negatively to what you're saying but you're so insecure that you read into stuff that isn't your fault. Or maybe you're going too deep for work place conversations. Like talking about personal stuff that is not what most people wanna here. Honestly, based on what you posted, you are a weird guy that has weird thinking. It's okay, no judgemental because I am too. But what I've found works with people is too just fit in with them. Don't air your dirty laundry out too them and just talk about mainstream stuff. If it's something you think might be what the average person isn't into, just don't talk about it.

Just not paying attention. We advancing too quickly imo. Not mature enough as a species to control this kinda stuff

Tried that kinda stuff lol I'm unfortunately a horrible sleeper

Just get her to cover a few hundred every month. It's true, you so own the equity in the apartment. Or she can cover food or something. If you guys stay together and get a place together someday, then maybe it's 50 50.

Weed was easy. Don't even think I was addicted. For me, I've been struggling for with sleeping pills lately. Might go back to the weed but just do oils before bed for sleep. I'm a shift worker in a high stress job so I need something at night to calm the nerves sometimes.

Had a guy that used to find me on reddit and respond to everything I said. It was innocent and funny because it was literally just him talking shit out the prequel star wars to me. Not really an argument I guess. He did it for like 3 years. Stopped doing it about 8 years ago. Wonder what happened to that guy.

Life is vastly different than in the 80s. You can literally know anything you want right now, simply by asking an artificially intelligent handheld computer that has access to every discovery known to man. We're on the cusp of being able to cure almost any disease and live forever. We can blow the planet up 10x over and still have ammo left. Scientists can see so far away that they can almost see the beginning of time. Nothing your great grandfather saw in his life will compare to what you will see in yours, have already seen.

Starting to look this way