Asklemmy

to spite entropy

I don't choose. To continue living is just the default, and time keeps passing, so I'm alive by inaction...

I want to know what happens

Dog.

I want to see what comes next.

We live in interesting times!

Because why not? I'm alive by default, and I'm too lazy to change that.

I'm a coward.

I have a chance, albeit a very small one, to make the world a place other people don't want to exit if I'm alive. Can't do that if I'm dead. But I would probably want to be euthanised if I started living a painful or disabled life.

I did not choose the living life, the living life chose me.

Because for all the suffering and horrific ugliness, there is still beauty and joy. The smile of a neighbor, the red-headed woodpeckers and their mates that visit, the stray cat that hangs out, my adult child's "I love you," and sharing of joys and challenges. My fur baby's cuddles, my dear friends' messages from afar. A walk at dusk in summers, sunsets and sunrises, the sound of rain and thunder, the call of tree frogs, watching deer walk and rabbits and squirrel play. A cool breeze, the taste of water, a berry, home made relish from my neighbors, laughing, crying, and emotions that can't be articulated but explored. Being at peace with myself.

sunk cost fallacy. i’m in too deep to stop now. really, this is how i manage everything. once the smallest amount of time has been invested in something there’s no stopping til i see it through.

If I had a turn off button on my back like a toy I would had pushed it long ago...

Suicide is too painful. That's it. Also my mom's food still nice.

Too a stupid to die.

I need to set my kids up with a better start than I had.

Can't afford to die; it's like $2700 just to dig the fucking hole!

Life is interesting. Even on the most mundane boring day I can entertain myself in my thoughts. I don't really get extreme mood swings like when I was a teenager. No matter how sad I am it doesn't feel like the world is over. It's enjoyable to exist from the small things like sun shining on my skin to the milestones.

If my life ever changed and I was struggling with no chance of getting back on track I would consider changing my outlook.

I love my husband and my cats

My boss would be really mad if I tried to not come in for that long

Death scares the shit out of me.

Plus, I'll get there eventually. No point in rushing.

1. this most likely is my only life, unless reincarnation is real
2. tons of people probably want me dead, so I stay alive to piss them off
3. I want to see what happens next
4. I can help to make other people's lives a little bit better
5. among all the pain and misery, there are lots of good things to enjoy
6. I'll get there eventually, no need to rush

Why wouldn't I? We are living in interesting times.

I stick around because (like some other people here) I want to live to see or even better help discovery the set of rules that underly the universe, see the stars even if just in photos, see what humanity is capable at its best, create anything that comes to mind, and learn everything I can. If the reason I dont want to live is the world around me (which it is) then I'd rather go out fighting, trying to change things rather than giving up outright (as a sidenote I wish someone created a place for people like this to meet and converse I see y'all scattered around the place but I can't find a singular congregation spot). I mean I have what could either be classified as very well thought out delusions of grandeur or long term plans for a sort of immortality and if there's the slimmest chance I can achieve that then I'm gonna shoot for it, and if I die trying then I get to die knowing I contributed to science in some hopefully big ways. So in summary I live to spite the world we live in and for the admittedly astronomically low chance I achieve my insane goal as the reasons for not living all relate to not having enough time and being restrained to a material world. Writing it out loud it's quite convoluted.

I've got alot of people I've promised that I won't off myself. Those promises were mainly what got me through the dark times.

I set up a plan a while back now. Once I hit an age where I feel pain all the time, I'll start evaluating whether I'm getting enough enjoyment out of life to continue. If I decide it's time, I start getting my affairs in order. Getting closure with folks, having some good final talks with folks, giving the advice I can, documenting that I know that I haven't documented yet, distributing my things, etc.

At the end of it, if I still feel like going, I'll get my N2 tank and respirator and find a nice place to sit.

I've given myself 30 years for my first raincheck. Might push it up if things get real bad, but it's pretty alright ATM so I don't think I will RN.

Because I will be vindicated and I will have my revenge and, to quote Violent J although I'm not a juggalo, "I'm not gonna die till I get my shit!"

My mom couldn't handle that. I also think there is still enough cool things to experience even though the world is going to shit right now.

Wanting to live is the default for most, even before we become fully aware of ourselves.

The question is, what would make you choose not to?

I don't have an alternative. If i die I will stop existing. And despite all the pain I'm living through it's all caused by the desire to live.

It's sometimes superficially tempting but dying would not solve any of my problems. You can't solve wrong choices in life by stopping to exist. It's just logically contradictory.

Life is fucking amazing. The intricacy of it all is just so incredibly deep, a neverending pool of knowledge and mysteries to explore. And then there also is a thing called creativity. The absolutely stunning, interesting, weird, crazy, lovely stuff around us is an endless adventure. And on top of that there is love, being able to care and support others is deeply rewarding.

I absolutely do not fear death and do not care about pain. I really just enjoy it here, so i avoid it as best i can. I eat healthy, active lifestyle, taking care of my psychological needs. I hope to live for another 100 years!

im a garden and landscape builder and my greatest pleasure in life is seeing things grow and progress.

a few months ago I connected with a group of incredibly nice people and seeing these people grow every day of their life, bringing in new people and change with them, that is my lifeline right now.

if I was to reincarnate, please let me be a hobbit in the 4th age.

Silksong

Have to wait for Hunter X Hunter to finish, or for the author to die. Then I can die.

My niece is starting to get old enough that, even if I leave a note asking them to tell her I was in an accident, I think she'd catch on. We're not super close but I'm not sure what it does to a kid's psych to learn people in their family can do that. I have VERY strong feelings about people who refuse to protect children, so unfortunately I'm here for a while.

Sheer bloody-mindedness.

I want to do stuff

Because I cannot believe that non existence is the default, and that what we are doing now is but a blip...so I'm going to see where this blip takes me.

By default life is meaningless, and I wanna make it meaningful

At my lowest:

• I wanted to get out of the pit just so I could help others get out too. But I'd admit I haven't actually realised this commitment. I just ask people how they feel and try to listen to everyone.
• I did not want to give anyone the pleasure to know that I gave up, that I could not take it anymore. That they won.
• I'd prefer to not cause suffering to my loved ones.

Now, I think life is both a gift and a responsability. And, right now, I want to fulfill this responsability I have towards others.

Anyways, I wish you all an existence that is worth going through.