Even tho i studied history, it took long to find topics like disability history, gender studies, science studies and... everything PoC are doing. Established Professionals downplayed all of these as not relevant. Not scientific enough. As a young professionell, you don't want to ruin your reputation, so you don't engage with that.

In my country you are told, not to drift away from society. Not to built up your own 'reality', cause you read... a feministic book.

These gashlight tactics had keep me from enganging with topics and communitys, which are interessting for me. I did not want to be outcasted. But now i feel more confidend.

I want to dive into the neurodiverse community, cause it is such a new perspective in dealing with ones own life. Much more empowering! Much more brave. Learning to live with stuff like high sensitivity, instead of forcing myself to overcome it. It's changing how i fre myself.

And yeah: how people talk to each all over the world has changed. To devide us is an easy way to controll us. 10 years ago you couldn’t say that out loud (ya soundes paranoid) but since the facebook papers it has become more much more clearer. It's a tool to undermine democraty. And a lot of people are stepping in that trap.