To be clear this isn't something I would want to try unless I had no other option. I am lucky that my University does testing for ADHD, and am hoping to get tested one day. I also already have an autism diagnosis, so already get some support, meaning it's not as high a priority for me as it is for someone completely undiagnosed.

I've already tried substances similar to amphetamine like cocaine, and honestly don't find them that pleasant. I am not in any real hurry to try that again. So I also doubt amphetamines are my thing.

I do find it interesting though that stories like yours happen. I've tried some very dangerous and addictive things including xanax, valium, ketamine, amphetamine, nicotine as well as the previously mentioned cocaine and honestly none of them took. I can only conclude that either I have no addictive tendencies or that I haven't tried the right class of substance yet. It's almost impossible for me to imagine being in your position. I guess it comes down to genetics or something.

I will note as well that if you can become addicted to the street version then that means you would have become addicted to the doctor prescribed version eventually too given enough time. It's similar to how pain patients end up addicted to opioids. I am glad you are doing better though.