Never reached the alpha male video phase, but I did look to shitty male role models. Then I realized no male role would ever feel right to me. I could respect the good ones, but I wouldn't feel comfortable actually being them.

[–] vaultdweller013@sh.itjust.works 4 points 11 months ago

Yeah, the amount of shit that you can find out about yourself when you realize ya aint getting what ya need from some folks is quite impressive. Mind you i aint trans, but I fell down the right wing pipeline up until about 2016 when I came to the conclusion right wingers are all stupid or evil. Cause fuck is the orange dipshit stupid, seriuously I was watching shitstains like sargon and tldr or whatever his fucken name is.

Now im a socialist redneck dude who worships Odin, I certainly had character development its just that it was all ran through my half functional autistic ass mind.